she's a witch
one of my dearest friends told me that she’s recently got into tarot. she suggested a book to get - kitchen table tarot. I ordered it and like a week later, she sent me my very own deck (with cats!). during that time, I actually had a tarot reading with an intuitive friend and she gave me a writing assignment. pick a card in the morning, write down what I think it means and then go about my day. at the end of the day, read what the card actually means and write about that and if it impacted my day at all in either understanding.
I have yet to start the project, but have a little bit of an adaptation planned where I do it at night. I want to pull a card and write my first ideas at night, and then read and write more about it the next night. not only because my dreams can get super vivid and often are directly related to my day, but I also don't see myself pulling cards and writing about them at 4am before work.
all that said, i’m writing this because I could not sleep. I did not even turn on a real light, only the flashlight from my phone, and I shuffled my deck for the first time. I thought of a question and the first card that I pulled was the page of cups, but it was reversed. I looked up what it meant and literally laughed out loud in bed. the page of cups reversed is basically disappointment and brokenhearted sadness. like, okay deck, way to call me out already. I thought c'mon this is just silly. so I asked another question and pulled another card. it was the fool, reversed. I started sensing a theme. I looked it up and no surprise, it also resonated hard in regards to love, which was my question. I am acting like a fool with my unrealistic expectations, and was about to be met with complete lack of maturity.
the next morning I tried again. I pulled a card after asking how the day was going to go, which included two events that would need some major decisions to be made. guess who got another reversed card? it me, your girl. I got xxi the world, reversed. I look it up to see what it means - not me feeling stuck and unfulfilled and having a lack of closure. thanks, wizard cat deck. thanks a lot.
I did not post this right away, I wrote it on friday, and it is now sunday night. I have pulled a few cards for friends and LET ME JUST SAY that this deck is definitely calling everyone out. the magic spells from the friend who sent it is clearly mixing with my own natural intuitions (shout out to a long line of women who were each witchy in their own ways). and I guess basically what I am saying is,
is it time to start my part time tarot gig?