whore moans
hormones have always affected me in all the fun ways that they are supposed to, but like times a thousand (e.g., angry enough to take out a small city right before the period or craving very specific sex when i'm ovulating). hormonal birth controls were so awful for me, I finally had to stop using them altogether in my thirties. and then periods stopped and I was diagnosed with pcos and I sorta lost track of my moods being traced to hormones. or lost track of my hormones, really.
I lost my sex drive in 2020 and that was a massive loss. it was a part of my identity. I now know that I stopped wanting to have sex with him for reasons more around us and not hormones (2019), but then over time, my health changed and I did not even enjoy masturbating (2021). that was one of my favorite things to do! it was not only physically painful(hip), but I was not turned on. the things that normally did turn me on, were not working. and then I just was bored with the whole thing. too much work.
so color me fucking surprised when (last october) I wanted to bang. I have since learned that one of the meds I am on can cause changes to libido because it is affecting the hormones, and while research is all over the place and still in early days because the drug class itself is so new, it would make sense considering I started the drug in june. its dosage is increased over time and feeling side effects in october would track. and now it is march 1 and the urges have not gone away. not only has it not gone away, but it is that hormonal craving, like my younger ovulating self. of course, I wanted to bang him when it first came back. but let's be honest, if he is banging that lady, which he totally has to be, I don't want it anymore because I am a stubborn, heartbroken, cutie patootie.
SO ANYWAY, your girl turned the dating profiles on again, and have set them up for fun with men too.
look, I am gonna be 46 next month. I have wild red hair. my tattoos and piercings look great. my boobs are still good and my ass is fat. even an unhoused dude called me BIG SEXY today. things could be looking great for this horny, single femme.